Chapter 11
~4 Months Later~
The tour had been long over and all the guys were taking a little break before they went back in the studio to record their fifth album. They were set to go back in exactly a month. Joey was using that time to spend with his new wife and little girl. Justin was just chillin' around the place and bothering Violet with Chris, and Lance was making another movie. JC was also taking it easy for like the first time in his life and was only going to studio to loosen up. He spent most of his time with Violet.
All of the guys found out about their relationship the last week Violet had been with them on tour and Justin was the least happy about it. But he eventually came to terms with it. His last words about the whole thing to JC was "if you hurt her, I kill you." Ever since he has been completely fine about it. Just a little overprotective as per usual.
Sarah finally found out just who J and Josh were. After a little bit of flipping out about it, she was fine. It was a little awkward at times to actually be that close to Nsync and hanging out, but Sarah adjusted, fast. She and Lance were actually hitting it off quite nicely.
As we speak, Violet and JC were actually freaking out. Violet realized something and told JC about it. He tried to remain calm but just couldn't. Pacing the room back and forth, JC bit his nails. Violet knew he was nervous because he never bit his nails.
"What are we going to do?"
Shaking her head, Violet replied. "I don't know."
"God, I thought we were careful."
"We were. Just apparently not careful enough."
Stopping in his tracks, JC sat down on the coffee table in front of Violet and grasped her hands in his own. "Hey, calm down. We'll get through this."
"I'm not so sure." She began to cry and JC wrapped his arms around Violet in a protective embrace. Reaching over to the phone, JC dialed his doctor's office and found out if they could fit them in today. Much to his approval, he found out there was an opening in an hour. Getting Violet's things together, they got into JC's jeep and he drove to the doctor's office.
After a twenty minute wait, Violet was called in.
"Ok Ms. Emerson, put this gown on and I'll be right back. The bathroom is right through there."
"Thank you." Violet changed quickly and sat with JC as they waited for the doctor to return.
"Alright Ms. Emerson. I just have some routine questions for you before we begin the procedure."
"Alright."
"When were you due to get your period?"
"Five days ago."
"And have you been feeling any cramping in your abdomen region?"
"Not more than usual."
"Ok. Have you been feeling tired lately?"
"Who wouldn't be after running a club. But actually, I have been feeling a little more exhausted than normally."
"Ok. And have you been feeling any nausea at all during the day?"
"Not really. I mean, I wake up and feel a little sick, but that's it." JC held on to her hand through the whole thing. Feeling more and more nervous as they came to the end of the testing.
Violet was told she could get dressed and so she did. She and JC were now sitting there holding hands, waiting for her test results. Both thinking the worst.
After ten more minutes of waiting, the doctor re-entered the room.
"I have your results, Ms. Emerson." Sitting up fully, Violet and JC gave her their full attention. "What would your reaction be if I told you all the tests came up negative?"
"We'd be extremely relieved."
"That's what I figured." The look on the woman's face told Violet and JC that they didn't want to hear what she had to say. But both knew they needed to hear it. "Well, then I'm glad to tell you you're not pregnant."
"Oh my god! Thank you!" The older woman watched as JC and Violet hugged and kissed each other, obviously happy with her answer.
"It's probably just stress from your job or something. Just take a few days to relax and you should be feeling as good as new."
"Thank you Dr. Riley."
"No problem." She handed them a piece of paper. "Just give this to the woman at the front desk. Have a good day."
"Oh we sure will now." She laughed easily. That was a huge weight lifted off their shoulders.
~*~
Violet and JC laid in the grass in the park just talking and being lazy.
"So how do you feel?" JC asked, playing with Violet's hand.
"Great. I really don't think I'm ready to be a mother yet." She laughed a little.
"Yeah. Same here."
"You don't think you're ready to be a mommy either?" Violet teased.
"Oh you know what I mean."
"I'm just playing." Violet smacked JC lightly on the arm then resumed her position, laying on her back with her head on his chest. "If I were pregnant, what would you want?"
"A Joshua Jr." JC smiled at the thought.
"Typical." Violet rolled her eyes.
"Alright fine miss thang! I bet you want a little girl, right?"
"You're absolutely right."
"See! Girls want girls, guys want boys!"
Looking at JC oddly, Violet smirked. "I can't help but to think of how sick that just sounded."
"Yeah. Me too." JC shook his head as Violet laughed at him.
"So Mr. I want a Joshua Jr before a little girl. Would you actually name him that?"
"No. I think I'd name him....yeah probably." Violet couldn't help but to laugh at his face. He looked so sweet and innocent. Yeah right, innocent.
"Ok, what about a little girl?"
"Hmm, there's a name I've always liked."
"Yeah?"
"Yeah." "I've always liked Jasmine."
"Jasmine." They both said the name at the same time. Looking at one another, they smiled and said, "Really?"
"Well, I guess that's settled then. When we have a girl, her name is Jasmine."
"That it is. But I don't really like your last name."
"Hey! You won't take it when we get married?"
"I will, I just don't want to give our children your name nor mine."
"Ok, so what do you propose we do?"
"Make one from both of ours."
"Ok, how about Chase?"
"That is just what I had in mind."
"Are you sure we're not reading each other's minds?" JC laughed before gently pressing his lips to Violet's.
"No. But I am sure we're meant for each other."
"Now that I am sure of myself." JC nuzzled his nose against Violet's before kissing her once again. "Have I told you lately that I love you?"
"You just did." Violet smiled before kissing the man deeply and passionately.
It didn't go unnoticed by JC either that Violet never said it back to him. no matter how many times he would say it to her, she would never say it back. He wasn't trying to rush her or anything, but they were already talking about marriage and children for Christ's sake! JC wasn't sure how much longer he could go without hearing Violet utter those three words he knew he needed to hear. JC wasn't stupid. He knew Violet gave her heart away once before and got it ripped to shreds and that could be why she was scared to do it again. But they've been dating for almost five months now. Maybe he was being selfish, but he needed to hear those three simple words.
"Come on. I want to take you somewhere."
"JC, it's the middle of the night. Where could you possibly want to take me?"
"You'll see. Come on." JC helped Violet up and after grabbing their things strewn out along the ground, he took her by the hand and led her back to the car. Getting in, JC drove off to destination unknown. Violet knew they were almost there when JC told her to close her eyes. As much as she didn't want to, Violet obeyed. A few minutes later she felt the car stop and heard JC get out.
Opening the passenger side door, JC grabbed Violet's hand and led her off to a place. Where? She had no idea.
"Careful. There's a few steps here."
"I swear, if I fall, you are dead."
"Oh I won't let you fall."
"You better not." Violet mumbled as JC helped her up the steps.
"Damn you're feisty tonight."
"No shit." Laughing, JC continued to lead his girlfriend down a hallway until they reached the room he wanted. Leading Violet up a few more stairs, he positioned her in the middle of what she assumed was a stage of some sort before leaving her to go to the switch board.
"Ok. You can open your eyes now." Just as Violet opened her eyes, JC flipped a bunch of switches and Violet was in awe. Only one person knew her true passion and that was Justin. She had a strong feeling JC hit him up for information and somehow JC got someone to let him into the theater. She had come here many times with Justin to watch some theatrical productions. Violet just loved being around all the lights and different acting and musical styles.
"You talked to Justin didn't you?" Her voice was small and choked back. JC knew she was trying to hide how much this really meant to her. As much as he knew she tried to put on this whole badass cover, he knew at heart, she was still the little small town girl from Tennessee. And nothing could ever take that away.
Walking over to Violet, JC wrapped his arms around her waist, resting his head on her shoulder.
"I needed to know what was really your passion. What would let me into your heart."
Turning in JC's arms, Violet looked him in the eyes. "You didn't have to do this to be in my heart. You already were. And you always will be."
"I honestly didn't think I was."
"Why on earth would you think that?"
"Because you never told me."
"I've told you."
"No. You haven't." Violet stepped away from JC and tried to think of a time when she told JC exactly what he meant to her. And to her surprise, she couldn't think of any. Actually, it didn't surprise her. She had let one man into her heart and he trampled all over it. She didn't know if she could trust another man with the key to her heart. But JC was different. He would never hurt her. He loved her too much.
Love.
Why did that word seem so foreign to her? Because she never used it. It was too hard for her to say. It's not that she didn't love JC. She truly did, with everything she had. So why couldn't she just say that to him?
"Vi, I need to hear it."
Shaking her head, Violet tried to keep her voice steady. "JC, I can't."
"Do you love me?"
"You know I do."
"Then say it."
"I can't."
"Why not?"
"Because I said it once before and I wanted to die when he ripped my heart out, ok? It hurts too much to say it!"
"Violet, if you love me, just tell me. I love you, you know that. I would never hurt you like that. Just please. I need to hear it."
Violet looked down and a sob escaped her throat. "That's what I thought." JC let go of Violet's hands and began to walk away. When he was behind the curtain, he heard it. Very faintly he heard Violet whisper the three words he had been longing to hear.
Turning back, JC slowly made his way back to Violet. "What did you say?"
Looking into JC's hopeful blue eyes, Violet again said, "I love you JC. I love you with everything I am. I always have and I always will."
JC let out a loud whoop-like sound and picked Violet up, spinning her around. Kissing her senseless, JC set her down. "I knew you loved me! See you could say it. God, I love this woman!" JC yelled to the empty theater.
"Shh, JC! Someone will hear you." Violet whispered sharply, trying not to laugh at his reaction.
"I don't care. I love this woman! I love Violet Emerson and she loves me! And I don't care who knows it!" Calming down a lot, JC wrapped his arms around Violet's waist. "I love you, Violet Emerson."
"I love you, JC Chasez."
Leaning down and claiming her lips as his own, JC felt a million feeling soaring through him. He never thought he needed to hear something so much in his life. Man was he wrong. He didn't think he could ever be happier. Violet was it for him. He would never be with another woman as long as he lived. They were forever.